And yet, here I am in the library, reading page after page without break, because there's something I must uncover, and I'm not sure yet what it is. There's no time for a break, but I'm at the point where the words I read don't actually go into my brain, so I thought maybe that means it's time I start pouring out some of the extra words so I can start filling it up again.
I had a bit of a crisis this weekend. I was supposed to go to Oxford to visit a friend, and since last week had been a little awful, I wasn't feeling so great. The stress was building and then I found out that I might not get all the loan money I need this term and I just snapped. I started crying in a puddle on the floor and ended up missing my train to Oxford. It was dumb, and I was very mad at myself. But, it pushed me to start working on finding a job so I spent the whole day looking. I applied for 3 jobs on Sunday night, which I was proud of myself for doing, but I haven't heard back from them yet. I desperately need an income, so I'm really hoping something will work out.
Moving on the important part of my post... I love London. And I love the British Library. It's really not the most charming of buildings, especially squatting next to what I like to call the Gothic Monster (St. Pancras train station).
But I still love it. I love the big terraced courtyard, and when it gets warmer it will probably be a nice place to read a book in the sunshine. I also love the inside. I love all of the natural lighting and the tall ceilings.
It's really a beautiful space. I couldn't take pictures of the readings rooms, but they're similar. Large, open, with vaulted ceilings and lots of natural light. They also have large desk space and big comfy chairs to sit in. I love the reading rooms. Here's another view of the main entrance.
I forgot to take a picture of it, but there's a painting on the wall by the entrance that is just the word YES over and over and over again. I love it. It's very affirming.
So this is where I've been spending most of my time lately. One of the other perks is that it is literally a 2 minute walk from where I live, so I can come home for lunch very easily, and it's only 4 train stops from where I plan on living in the summer. I'm so glad I get to spend so much time in this building. I love it.